hiatus from a hospital room

For a mother there are few things harder than watching your child suffer, be sick, or be in pain. As I sit in my son’s hospital room watching him finally fall off to sleep after a long day, I start to daydream. I drift to a time when all of this is behind us. I dream of a place where we can all relax together, enjoy each other, and have fun. All it takes is a loud groan to bring me right back down to reality. He starts to squirm in pain, and I rush over to comfort him.
“Close your eyes sweet boy… in only a few weeks we’ll be in St. Barts. You can play in the pool, snorkel in the bright blue sea, eat incredible food, and rest.”
“Can we eat my favorite pizza there?”
“Of course!” I said with a giggle. I instantly felt a lump in my throat as the question “what if ?” crept into my mind. I fought back tears as I silently thanked God.
Have you ever asked yourself “what if”?
What if things were different?
What if things didn’t end well?
What if…?
Well, today I’ve managed to escape my “what if” nightmare. I’ve never been happier to watch Star Wars Clone Wars in my entire life.

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